Hey people –
Sorry for the delay with this entry. I guess it has been difficult for me to write this one since it will be my last. It is crazy how quickly time flies, it seems like yesterday that I first started looking at business schools and here it is at the end. It took me a while to write this particular entry because I wasn’t sure what to say. I can’t lie, I felt pressure to make sure that my last words captured the essence of my entire experience, but I don’t feel like I possess the verbal ability to ensure that that happens. So I’ll just say this. The past 1 ½ years have been an amazing journey. I’ve learned so much.
I still can’t quite believe how stagnant I had become at work. When you’re inside of a situation it is difficult to take an external view. For me the realization is that I need to keep learning, keep myself motivated, stay sharp. I’ll probably enroll in another masters program when after I start working, not full time again. No, this is it for me and full time student status, but I’ll enroll in another class to keep my mind working, it will help me in the long run and also, since it will be on the company, why not? :-)
I’ve tried to give you a feel for what it has been like for me being a student in Bschool. As I look back over my blog I realize that it did not take the direction that I thought it would when I first started writing. I can’t lie, the blog was as much for me as it is for you. To help me remember the feelings, thoughts, raw emotions that I experienced during school. As I read it over, I realize that there were times when I was writing about those experiences completely independent of being a student. The things I wrote about my family, my sister, my personal life, those are all things that aren’t directly related to school, but became part of the overall school experience since they happened during school. It may sound funny, but when I first started writing I didn’t take into account the fact that life wouldn’t stop. The writings reflect that, the continuation of life apart from being a student. Some people may have felt that I shared too much, others may have felt that I didn’t share enough. But in my heart I know that I shared what I had. So I hope that for at least one person it was worthwhile. For me it will be worth it if one person realizes the fact that bschool is an opportunity to learn, not just the subjects taught, but also more about yourself. Do you remember what it was like when you first went to college? When you first became the person that you wanted to be instead of the person your parents wanted you to be? Bschool represents a similar opportunity, the chance to develop into the business person that you want to be, instead of the business person that you thought you should be. So if you want to do social enterprise, or non profit, or leave banking and go into marketing, don’t be afraid to do it.
Thanks to everyone for reading, thanks to the people who told me to stay encouraged during my most difficult of times. To everyone that I’ve met and will meet in person, forgive me if I act shy when you tell me that you’ve read my blog, for me it’s like telling me you found my diary. (I don’t have one – but if I did it’d be like that):) I swear I don’t mind, but for me to be open and honest I have to not think about the fact that complete strangers are reading this. So in short, don’t think I’m a jerk if I act a little awkwardly.
TMR – wow it’s been a long journey, we’ve lost some and gained some and overall I think we’re stronger because of it. It’s great to see it grow and change into something much larger than its humble beginnings.
And to anyone that I may have forgotten – I didn’t really forget, I just ran out of time :-)
Take care!
PS if anyone sees the "Dean Dean Baby" video making its way around the bschool circuit right now -that's me and my classmate Amani doing the actual vocals. If you haven't seen it its pretty funny - check it out here
http://www0.gsb.columbia.edu/students/organizations/follies/
just scroll down to Dean Dean Baby :-)